TIDE

“Caught in a tide,

gripping on to rocks

settled in the sand

they loosen

so does my grip

were no longer safe

floating in the tide

tossed from side to side

reaching for nothing to hold

we should have stayed on the shore.”

SCA PERRY

Again/Decisons

I am faced with another choice, torn between what I want and what is best for my surroundings. How weird that those are the two deciding factors right? The sad part is I already know what I am going to chose, I just have to accept the decision.

I have this amazing opportunity in front of me, one that I was specifically given. But it would require me to relocate, not as far as out of state but far enough that I would need to move. It would take my attention away from my family, which was the reason I returned from Colorado in the first place. It would also open the door to so many opportunists for my future, its right in my alley, right where I want to be.

I want to be angry, angry that I am going to have to pass this opportunity, but I don’t even know who to be angry with. Life, circumstances, I could never regret making a decision that would benefit the people I love most, but sometimes I  really do wish I was handed a different set of cards.

I suppose everything happens fora reason right, I’m sure I’ll look back on this in a year and know what that reason was; until then …