Posts Tagged ‘blogging

29
Dec
17

Fail

Is it possible my secret weapon turned against me and now is my kryptonite. Words use to be what set me free, now it fees like pulling barred wire out of my throat, a bit dramatic I suppose, but understand what that means, how difficult it has become for me to communicate.

It sucks, it fucking sucks!

I’ve been blogging for almost a decade now, how could words fails me?

Whats supposed to set me free now?

 

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14
Dec
17

Thursday

Its been a while, even now its a struggle, to just free my thoughts…

When did communicating become so difficult for me?

I often feel trapped inside myself. My mind is going constantly, its so loud its drowning and yet when I try to articulate a thought, its all of a sudden silent. Or maybe its so loud I don’t hear anything at all.

 

08
Nov
17

flashback

I was in the process of filling out a college app before I scurried away here to unleash. College just doesn’t sound appealing, maybe because I’ve been in college on and off for the past 7 years and don’t have much to show for it. Maybe because I don’t actually know what I want to do anymore; or maybe the finish line just seems to far away..

Do you remember the moment you started caring what people thought of you? I don’t but I feel like I woke up one morning and realized I did care, too much, that caring had been controlling my life for as long as I could remember.

Sometimes I wish I was born with instructions, that someone could just tell me what I’m supposed to be doing and how to do it.

 

01
Nov
17

Nov/Tuesday

Just when I think the world is about me, the universe reminds me its not.

We lost my aunt, unexpectedly, suddenly, and slowly…

Death brings about so much, evoking another person inside you, fighting reality and time seems to be a nuisance.

To swallow death is as to swallow your fist, where would one even begin?

I know one thing, I miss God. I miss Believing. I miss letting go…

How do you find meaning in life after death?

What should my book be about now? Now that everything seems so menace.

23
Oct
17

left but never Gone

Damagedmiracle.wordpress.com 

“I thought I could detach myself from you, but no matter where I am you will always be apart of me; I wouldn’t be me without you.”

10
Dec
15

Again/blue

Do you ever wake in a bad mood for no apparent reason? Have you ever had the realization that life is just endless repetition and no matter how hard you try to fight the routine, the social norm, you subconsciously know you’re going to succumb to the game of life in the end?

I’m feeling blue today. The scary kind of blue, the kind that keeps you trapped in bed with the lights and your phone shut off. I’m not suicidal, yet I just don’t feel like existing..

05
Dec
15

Again/Sketch

I’ve recently picked up sketching, just as a new hobby. Its taught me patience and I find it tobe quite relaxing, I’m no piccaso or anything but its something I enjoy and another part of me I thought I’d share.

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