Archive for March, 2015

30
Mar
15

again/fasting

This is not the firs time I’ve done this, but it will be the first time I’m recording it. I’m choosing to do so because the last few times I’ve attempted this I have not had the self disciple to see it through, so I’m hoping posting this will hold me more accountable and remind me why I chose to fast in the first place.

For the next 72 hours I am going to consume water and only water, for a couple reasons. First It’s a natural detox that flushes the body of toxins and such and if not abused can actually be really healthy and aid in preventing future disease. Second, it takes a lot of self discipline and typically I will set a goal that I’m fasting for that encourages me to remain strong through out the fast. I also use the time I would spend eating or thinking about eating focusing on that set goal (I’ve done it to cure writers block, or finish a project or force myself to focus on something personal I’ve been avoiding).

The Physical Process *

DAY 1: The primary form of energy the body uses for energy is glucose; most of this is extracted or converted from the food we eat. Throughout the day, the liver stores excess sugar in a special form called glycogen that it can call on as energy levels fall between meals. There is enough of this sugar source for 8-12 hours of energy and usually, it is completely exhausted within the first 24 hours of fasting.

DAY 2-3: Once the liver’s stores of glycogen are gone, the body begins to shift over to what is called ketosis (or ketone) production (the use of fatty acids as fuel instead of glucose.  The body then accesses glucose from two sources it first converts glycerol to glucose but this is still insufficient so it makes the rest that it needs from breaking down the amino acids in muscle tissue.

DAY 3: From the third day onward the rate of the breakdown of fatty acids from fat tissue continues to increase… (This is where I stop but if you were to continue) after the body has shifted completely over to ketosis, is where the maximum breakdown of fat tissue occurs. As part of protein conservation, the body also begins seeking out all non-body-protein sources of fuel: nonessential cellular masses such as fibroid tumors and degenerative tissues, bacteria, viruses, or any other compounds in the body that can be used for fuel.

*http://www.gaianstudies.org/articles4.htm

My fast begins will begin today Monday beginning at 7 am and I will consume food again Thursday at 7 am.

Wish me luck!

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30
Mar
15

postsecret

santa2

impact_casie3

25
Mar
15

Ayotzinapa: 43 missing

 On Sept. 26, in the rural town of Iguala, in the state of Guerrero in southwest Mexico, a bus carrying student teachers was stopped by police and gunmen believed to belong to a local cartel. The students, who attend the Normal University in Ayotzinapa, were traveling to Iguala to protest education reforms and raise funds. They also stole four buses to return home. Six people were killed at the scene, and 43 went missing.*
Authorities believe the police delivered the students to the local drug cartel, Guerreros Unidos. The mayor of the town, José Luis Abarca, and his wife, María de los Ángeles Pineda, were later arrested and charged with ordering the police to capture the students out of fear that they would cause a disturbance.*
This is not the first, biggest, or most gruesome mass disappearance during Mexico’s past eight years of brutal drug violence. More than 106,000 have died in what government data term “executions,” “confrontations,” and “homicide-aggressions” since former President Felipe Calderon informally declared his war on drugs in 2006. But the tragedy of Ayotzinapa is different. Rarely has the collusion between local authorities and the cartels been so obvious and the consequences so dire. Unsurprisingly, the events surrounding the case have captivated Mexico and the international community for weeks.*
The violence in Mexico—a disturbingly bland phrase—is reaching the limits of normal human experience and of the language we use to describe it. The violence in Mexico cannot tell you that in Mexico every day is the day of the dead, and the day of the disappeared, and the day of the mutilated, and the day of the bereaved. Ayotzinapa and its unique convergence of events, actors, timing, and place speak to this. Mexico is tired—exhausted, even. Now is precisely when its people will fight back the hardest. *

Our next door neighbors are knocking, and they’re asking for a lot more than a cup of sugar.

I think its time to answer, will find alliances elsewhere.

*http://www.slate.com/blogs/the_world_/2014/11/14/ayotzinapa_could_the_disappearance_of_43_students_bring_down_the_mexican.html

23
Mar
15

The AutoBiography of Malcom X as told to Alex Haley

I don’t have time at the moment to fully elaborate on this astounding novel, but I’d like to share a small excerpt for the time being:

I want to say before I go on that I have never previously told anyone my sordid in past detail. I haven’t done it now to sound as though I might be proud of how bad, how evil I was. But people are always speculating– why am I as I am? To understand that of any person, his whole l;life, from birth, must be reviewed. All of our experiences fuse into our personality. Everything that ever happened to us is an ingredient. Today when everything that I do has an urgency, I would not spend one hour in the preparation of a book which has the ambition to perhaps titillate some readers. But I am spending many hours because the full story is the way that I know to have it seen and understood, that I had sunk to the very bottom of the American white mans society when — soon now, in prison– I found Allah and the religion of Islam and it completely transformed my life.”

“All of our experiences fuse into our personality. Everything that has ever happened to us is an ingredient.” The simplicity of that statement is so ridiculously beautiful to me. This excerpt wasn’t even the jist of the book, it was just a small factor in why he decided to let Alex Haley write his autobiography. I chose to highlight this though because the truth it holds is relatable world-wide. We all have a story, and what makes our story is our different life experiences and to fully understand someones life you have to know their every experience. You have to understand that life is a ripple effect, and the results of one experience shape your next experience and so forth; you have to see the beauty in the butterfly effect.

23
Mar
15

Sketch

She captures apart of me I didn't know I had to offer.. Illustrated by: K.N Oakes

She captures a part of me I didn’t know I had to offer..
Illustrated by: K.N Oakes

23
Mar
15

again/dreams

Lately my dreams have been blending into relality.. I’ll have a though mid day and can’t decipher whether it’s from my dream or a memory.

I know it’s my subconscious telling me to deal with my shit, deal with HER specifically. But I’m just not ready, I don’t think I’ll ever be “ready” but at least I’m not ready to force myself…

In the mean time I suppose I’ll start taking zzquil, maybe If I sleep hard enough I just won’t dream at all.

19
Mar
15

again/label

I don’t particularly care for labels, though I understand the relevance of them in a world where things are better understood when they are categorized. Despite that, I don’t think I have to label myself personally to be better understood. I’ve often found it to be challenging when describing my sexuality to not like minded people. Its difficult for people to view things outside of their social norm. It was hard enough for homosexuality to become accepted, if you would even consider it accepted, but everything else in between, why that’s just to much to bare… but really, its not! The only time who I am attracted to should affect someone else is if A. I’m attracted to you (and even that’s debatable) or B. you are attracted to me. Otherwise, there’s nothing for anyone to understand, except that I’m with the person that makes me happy, isn’t that the end goal no matter who you’re attracted too?

In choosing to label myself for the benefit of this post, I find that I am most relatable to Pansexuals.

Pansexual: Pansexual people may be sexually attracted to individuals who identify as male or female; however, they may also be attracted to those who identify as intersex, third-gender, androgynous, transsexual, or the many other sexual and gender identities*

Now to counteract your first idea, Pansexuality IS different from Bisexuals, though the basis is pretty standard.

Bisexuals: Bisexual people are attracted sexually and romantically to both males and females, and are capable of engaging in sensual relationships with either sex. Despite being able to form meaningful, lasting relationships with both sexes, bisexual individuals may, to a small or large degree, have a preference for one sex over the other*

The biggest difference between the two, people who self-identify as pansexual do so with purpose, to express that they are able to be attracted to various gender and sexual identities, whether they fall within the gender binary or not. Recognition of the existence of different genders and sexualities is a major aspect of pansexual identity. Pansexual people are bisexual, in-fact; however, bisexuality does not place the same emphasis on sexual and gender identity awareness, but more simply indicates attraction to the two (generally accepted) biological sexes*

In a nutshell: Bisexual identity more so establishes attraction to both genders, whereas pansexual identity more so recognizes the existence of other genders (third genders) and the capacity to be sexually attracted to individuals identifying as these various genders*

All in all I like people, it doesn’t matter what you look like, what gender you identify as or what sexual parts you do or don’t have. No one is off limits, because those physical features don’t determine whether I can fall in I’ve with a person or not, what determines that are the qualities possessed on the inside.
Now with being said, I am human and there are certain qualities whether physical or not that are more stimulating than others, but again those qualities can be found in any type of person (;