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10
Dec
15

Again/blue

Do you ever wake in a bad mood for no apparent reason? Have you ever had the realization that life is just endless repetition and no matter how hard you try to fight the routine, the social norm, you subconsciously know you’re going to succumb to the game of life in the end?

I’m feeling blue today. The scary kind of blue, the kind that keeps you trapped in bed with the lights and your phone shut off. I’m not suicidal, yet I just don’t feel like existing..

10
Dec
15

You. Her. Again

So I said I share and here we are; I never realized how awkward I was .. or maybe it’s just on camera. Also, the last poem is actually titled Again, not Her, I just didn’t want to re-record the whole thing to change one word.

08
Dec
15

Again/control

I am so easily affect by some things and made of stone when it comes to others. Vauge I know, but how is this possible? If I am able to control how I am affected by one thing, shouldn’t I be able to do it for everything? Apparently not, I am so confused by myself sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever figure it out; just when I think I’m in control and I’ve got a grip I am stunted in my own actions.

Universe help me.

07
Dec
15

December 7th 1941

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74th anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor. Take a moment.

 

05
Dec
15

Again/Sketch

I’ve recently picked up sketching, just as a new hobby. Its taught me patience and I find it tobe quite relaxing, I’m no piccaso or anything but its something I enjoy and another part of me I thought I’d share.

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03
Dec
15

Another shooting in my Backyard

“14 killed, 21 injured in San Bernardino, CA the second worst mass shooting to date”

It sickens me that I can actually say another shooting so causally, as if thats just become a part of everyday life, but it has hans’t it? Over 355 mass shootings in 365 days according to The Los Angelas Times, thats on average at least one mass shootings a day. Pardon my french but, what the fuck. Now people get shot everyday, specially where I’m from or at least the surrounding areas, but a mass shooting is more than four people with no break. My tiny little brain just cant comprehend the growing popularity of mass shootings. Its like a domino affect, every time another one occurs, its publicized, its scrutinized, its sets something off in someone else’s brain and allows them to think of it as an option. So the next time my boss pisses me off or I feel I have been shorthanded, I will actually rationalize “oh maybe I should just come to work and shoot the place up tomorrow”. Is this ever going to end, or is this just our new way of life? I mean honestly how is supposed to end, what are we supposed to do. I know peoples biggest argument is Gun control right now, but past that, the root of the problem. What kind of mental state do you have to be in to commit such an action. What can we do to help before a person gets to the point of LEGALLY purchasing a gun and committing mass murder?

It’s different unfortunately when we see news reports of mass shootings, its different because were watching it on T.V. We feel for the victims, we cry, we pray for them and then time passes and they just become another statistic. I suppose I should only speak for myself, its different for me because its not happening to me or anyone I know. But yesterday, literally 10 minutes from my house 14 innocent people were killed, 21 were injured and three murdered sent our local police on a wild goose chase for justice. The sirens I heard were not coming from my television but from outside my door, I could literally hear the sirens, life has never felt more real than in those moments.. and even now that the suspects have either been killed or obtained and we await a motive that will give us some piece of mind; because once we can justify it we can sleep better at night. I sit here wondering what do we do next?  Just accept that this happens and now its happened to us but life goes on. I don’t want to become immune to this, I don’t want it to be apart of my everyday life, and yeah its unfortunate that it had to happen close enough to me for me to realize, but fact is it happened and I don’t want to just sit back and wait for the next mass shooting.

03
Dec
15

Again/Artist

What makes someone an artist exactly; do you deem yourself one or is there a certain point you must reach before you’re considered one by all?

I want to start sharing my poetry and written word more, I can’t believe its honestly something I’ve never thought of before. Recently I’ve been attending an open mic once a week and I’ve shared my work a few times. My younger sister Skyler is a dancer and she wants me to help her create a Youtube page to share her dancing, I suggested we collaborate and I can share my poetry as well; kind of like an “artist corner” where we can share a multitude of different types of art. My other sister Breanna draws as well.

Soon, very soon.